the awesome/terrifying freedom

here it is!

hi.

i've been in creative hibernation the last couple weeks, but i promise you, whoever you are out there, if there is anyone out there at all, that there is plenty of stuff coming up.

i shot a short film directed by my friend cameron cash last weekend, in which i play an off-balance efficiency expert turned murderer. it's very difficult to be funny on camera. i'm anxiously awaiting the results.

i also shot requiem movie #5 last night, starring my neighbor and genius songwriter, jeremy schonfeld. can't wait to have it edited and out there.

i'm also directing another short film written by neal utterback, which i'll be shooting next week during my vacation.. all coming to youtube very soon..

this commercial is pure genius. i wasn't sure where it was going, but once the title card comes up, all is clear, and boy did they nail it. the hairstyles, the jazz hands, the butterflys coming out of insane smiley faces - brilliant.

i love this new trend in advertising that downgrades a product's promise to what it actually will do - they're not promising to make mornings a sunny snuggly experience, no, drinking folgers will merely make it tolerable, which is all you can expect from any coffee, which is honestly a pretty refreshing message.

also:

it's kind of disturbing when you have clothes in your closet old enough to now be back in style. but also kind of cool to be able to trot them out again.

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it's everywhere, but i must repost.



trying to fix the comments..

i told my mom that i was scared about the future, and she completely put me in my place.

'you are smart, and you can do anything,' she said. 'your cousins would kill to have a chance to come to america with nothing and look for work. you will be fine. you have so much.'

and she's right. it's so easy to forget.

i've been especially irritable the past couple days. i think it has to do with a combination of a lack of food and sleep. and the ridiculous thing is that both of these things are totally in my control. so succumbing to a bad attitude is a totally selfish, destructive thing to do, and observing it in other people, i don't have any patience for it, which just irritates me more. must break the cycle!

i was so irritable that:

i yelled FUCK YOU! to a car turning into my crosswalk. i am never that guy.

i got a spam email which the gmail filter didn't catch. so i called the number and left a message saying "hi my name is joe larue, i live in brooklyn and i just received a spam email from your company. i'm just calling to tell you that you can go to hell, and you can all go fuck yourselves, thank you very much."

and i got to that place where everything everyone says is stupid and wrong and jesus it's not even worth my time to explain to you why so i'm just going to walk away.



i didn't quite reach the ultimate level, which would be the now infamous "hong kong bus uncle." i mean, this guy is a total asshole, just insufferable. but boy, i do know where it comes from.

i went back to the apple store thursday just to hang out, and as i was heading home, there was a guy standing in front of me at the crosswalk. i thought 'wow, that guy has a great back.' he was about 5'7 -5'8, and had a perfect haircut with teeny tiny gray hairs poking out. you know how you can just tell, seeing someone from behind, that they're gonna be smoking hot when they turn around? that was this guy.

and he turned like 3/4, looking over to the side, and i saw one of his perfect perfect ice blue eyes. i didn't see his whole face, but i gasped with a suspicion of who he might be.. and as soon as i heard him speaking some eastern european language, i knew. dear god, it was lukas ridgeston.

what, you say? you don't know who lukas ridgeston is? then you are not a gay man. and that's not to be cute or facetious, i mean really, you're just not a gay man. lukas is an international celebrity of tom cruise caliber among gay men only.

and that's because he'a porn star.

not just any porn star, a huuge porn star. lukas was actually my first porn crush. about my age, devastatingly gorgeous, and, um, talented, he was the original star of bel ami studios - whose films play like an abercrombie catalog's id: gay undertones be damned, these clean cut athletic guys in college-boy gear go all the way.

anyway. i should have said something. 'hi,' anything, but i was stunned. the years look good on him. he's still perfect.

finally got these up on flickr.. that stupid bandwith limitation.. i have to wait until after the first of the month before i have enough bandwith to upload pics again.. anyway, these are my favorite pics from the weekend in the woods..